Testimony time!!! Let’s talk about sowing and reaping. I remember coming back from a mission trip to Mexico back in 2021, I was single at the time, and remember shopping in the little shops before we headed home. I clearly heard the Lord telling me that I needed a ring on my finger from Him but I didn’t find one there. I didn’t have a lot of money at the time and I told the Lord, Jesus I want what you want but I’m not spending a ton. I can’t. I remember Him months later leading me to overstock one random day, and I found the perfect London blue topaz ring. It was rose gold with a halo and diamonds down the side. The kicker was it was the exact price I told the Lord I could pay.
I got that ring and fell in love with it. It was perfect for me. It reminded me of the Lords “oceans deep” love and I wore it religiously. I didn’t have it long, not long at all when I went to a friend’s ministry event. At that event I clearly heard the Lord telling me to give that ring away. That He had a promise to keep to someone else and that Jesus wanted to be her all in all in this next season. In that moment I had a choice to make, give it away in obedience or keep it. I walked over to her and gave it to her with joy in my heart. If Jesus wants her to have it, it’s hers.
On my way home, when my hands were on the steering wheel, my flesh and emotions began to miss that ring. I missed the feel of it, the sparkle and I decided I’d just buy a replacement when I got back home. The kicker was, there was no replacement to be found. It was out of stock online and no matter where I searched I couldn’t find it. In my mind and flesh I was discouraged but I knew in my spirit that the Lord was right and I was obedient. During my last marriage there was no real proposal, no engagement ring and I found a knock off jeweler that had a replica of that London blue ring for 50 bucks, no diamonds down the side, just plain. I wore it for a bit, but the gold would rub off or a stone in the halo would break. After a few of those ended up in the trash, I decided to stop looking for that ring and to stop buying knock off replacements for myself.
Back in November of last year when things kept getting worse I heard the Lord remind me that He was going to put His ring back on my finger and to file for divorce. (I severely neglected his timing on this but that’s another story). Through that prompting I went to look online and I found the original ring, the one I gave away; but the kicker was that Angara jewelers picked it up and it was now 10 times what I paid on overstock back in 2021. That was such a huge discouragement for me, but something deep in my spirit told me to hold on to the promise the Lord made me in prayer. That He was going to put His ring on my finger again.
During the next few months there were constant health issues, multiple blood draws threats of a possible cancer diagnosis, the need for a blood transfusion I kept refusing and curses of death looming over my head. After failed counseling, constant nightmares and fearing all the what if’s, the Lord simply said “Watch this” and changed my whole life on a dime. Before my last blood work was taken in April, He sent Dan to lay hands on my head and pray for healing outside of the medical center. That blood work came back good. I was healed. Many of you don’t know how suicidal I was back in March, April, and most of May, June and July because of everything over the last few years. None of you were there. Who physically stopped me from jumping off an overpass, Dan. Who showed up when I couldn’t breathe, couldn’t speak and was falling apart, Dan. Who held me when I cried for hours on end, day after day when I was always a burden to everyone else, Dan. None of you saw the deliverance I went through when the legal rights of that divorce were final. None of you were there, but Jesus was. He sees it all, and I will answer to Him for my sins, my mistakes, my repentance and the way my life has changed this year. No one else.
And don’t take how I’m saying this wrong, it’s not meant to accuse anyone of not being there, not one bit, it’s simply to state that if you don’t understand my struggles, and my war with this flesh, then you won’t understand my level of praise and dedication to Jesus and all He has done for me.
Here’s where it gets good again! Only the Lord knew that I have always dreamed of a beach proposal, and what does Dan do, he takes me to a waterfall, to the beach, and proposed with a simple “Marry me” with our feet in the sand. I said yes to a simple rose gold ring with a heart knowing that the Lord had something special planned for us. Daniel had told the Lord, that he’d never come back into my life again unless he could keep me, and I’m honored to be kept. A few days later the Lord sent someone unexpected to our door to marry us in the most personal and intimate way possible. He sure likes using the foolish things to confound the wise. As everything of the natural continued to fall away this season, I was stripped of people I thought knew my heart. My foundation was shaken and rebuilt and I have realized the value of simple family dinners, trips to the park and the miracles that happen all over the place when the left hand doesn’t know what the right hand is doing. I have found my place in life, and I am flourishing in the call the Lord has for me. The call to be a wife and mother, and to proclaim His goodness every where we are led, the rest is just the overflow.
A few weeks ago, as we were shopping for rings, we decided to stop in to a local independent jeweler to get sized. There it was, my ring. I knew it the moment I saw it and tried it on. As we witnessed to the jeweler and shared some of our testimony, and how we just came in to get sized, we shared about Jesus, His economy, how we rely on HIM for everything, and how we knew a check was coming because Dan had a dream about a certain amount a few days prior; but we didn’t know, how, when, or if we would be back to get that ring. We just knew we needed the funds for it to come before anything could happen.
As we left, to be honest, I was slightly disappointed to leave it behind. It was like my spirit knew that THIS was THE ring from the Lord. I didn’t want to go without it and my flesh got a little pouty. Dan simply said trust Jesus Ash, and we went home.
I kid you not, in the mailbox that very same day, as soon as we got home a check was there.
It came that exact day, and not only did it come that same day, it came in the exact amount Dan was shown in his dream, which was three times what we needed for the full price of the rings.
We got to get back in the car and go back to the jeweler, just HOURS after we left, and tell the same people about how the Lord showed up with the check we needed, as we purchased THE LeVian ring the Lord had for me. Not only did we get my ring, but they had the same ring Daniel found online, that the Lord showed him on his finger in a vision.
And… and…the best part is with the favor we received from the jeweler all our rings together cost less in total than it would have cost me to buy that original ring online again!!! This gal was floored by the favor and love Jesus has shown! I will never stop sharing my testimony. I’ll never stop giving Jesus Christ all the glory!!! He is everything! We would be nothing without His sacrifice on the cross.
John 3:17
17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.
1 Corinthians 1:27-31
27 But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; 28 God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, 29 so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. 30 And because of him you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption, 31 so that, as it is written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord.”
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