176. Amazing Grace

We all have those times in life where everything seems so chaotic, I know the last few months have felt that way for me. It seemed like one thing after the next. From the death of my father, to traveling to Puerto Rico, to quarantining without pay, to Nash getting sick, then I got sick, my car transmission needed replaced and the part was going to take weeks, the strangeness of going through some of my dads things, oh and my bathroom flooded right before Christmas and my new car got a nail in the tire, I ended up sick again. Now I’m in this strange homeless state of going back and forth due to my bathroom and mold under the floor from the pipe busting. I’m probably the most out of my comfort zone that I’ve ever been and I go and partner with the Lord and we decide that nows the time to tackle sugar and caffeine addiction so all of that is making my flesh feel fantastic. Note the sarcasm in that last word please. Happy New Year Ya’ll! 

As I was praying and going over a thousand things in my head last night, crying my eyes out to the Lord about everything; He showed me a vision of Hope. Not just for me but for everyone. It was a brief view of what we have to hold onto, the Hope in Jesus returning. 

The room began to darken and I felt the presence of the world surround me. It’s darkness felt alive, consuming and insatiable. It was like the whole world had gone dark. Then I saw the Lord as Jesus being lifted up. I saw this glimpse of a presence that I felt was the Lord and was struck dead in my chest with His overwhelming love for His only son. I couldn't move. It was this undying unity and love that I have a hard time putting into words other than to say I was breathless. 

It felt like I barely blinked and Lord Jesus came back to earth swift with a sword. It felt like no time had passed at all in the Spirit. I began to hear the song Amazing Grace playing, I don’t know if it was in my head or my ears, but I heard it plain as day. The same darkness that had crucified the Lord Jesus, turning the people against Him in the past, had never stopped trying to consume each and every one of the Lords children by turning them against the one true Father even till this day. He sees you struggling in the darkness of this world. He will not forsake you. This too shall pass. 

As Jesus came swiftly, He was pulling people out of the darkness, lifting them up and showing them the way to the Father. One after another as the song continued to play. 

The Lord is coming. Be ready, be repentant, be watchful, be prayerful, be committed. He’s coming for those who are waiting for Him, those who KNOW Him. The rest will be consumed by insatiable darkness, and far worse. 

Be ready my bride.

And just like that all my problems felt so small, so insignificant and so wasteful. Thank you Lord for your perspective. For your focus. I lay the rest at your feet. 

Thank you Jesus for your mercy, your grace and your eternal salvation. Thank you for your sacrifice, for your love, and for every time you knew better than I did. Thank you for blessing me with a new car and a safe warm place for the kids and I to stay. Thank you for my mentors, my friends and my pastors. Thank you for the ladies I can’t live without, the ones that you sent to speak life and keep me straight. Thank you for sending me on missions and for using me in ministry, my work, and most importantly as a mom. Thank you for my children. I can’t wait to see what you have planned for 2022. 

2 Peter 3:9 - The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.

Matthew 10:34-38 Not Peace, but a Sword.                     34 “Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. 35 For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law. 36 And a person's enemies will be those of his own household. 37 Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. 38 And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.

John 3:14-21  14 And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up: 15 That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life. 16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. 17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. 18 He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. 19 And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. 20 For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. 21 But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.

Acts 3:19 - Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord;

2 Chronicles 7:14 - If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

Acts 2:38 - Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.

Proverbs 28:13 - He that covereth his sins shall not prosper: but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.

Matthew 4:17 - From that time Jesus began to preach, and to say, Repent: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.

Revelation 1:7 - Behold, he cometh with clouds; and every eye shall see him, and they also which pierced him: and all kindreds of the earth shall wail because of him. Even so, Amen.

Revelation 22:12- And, behold, I come quickly; and my reward is with me, to give every man according as his work shall be.  

John 14:3 - And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also.

John 14:6-7 6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. 7 If ye had known me, ye should have known my Father also: and from henceforth ye know him, and have seen him.

1 Thessalonians 4:17 - Then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord.

2 Corinthians 12:9 - And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Ephesians 2:8-9 - For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God 9. Not of works, lest any man should boast

Matthew 7:21-23 21 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22 On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ 23 And then will I declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.’