By now you all know my stance on demons, Jesus, Heaven and hell. You’ve read my blogs and have seen the videos. Some of you I’ve prayed with, worshiped with and lived life with. This journey continues to unravel the darkness that has covered me like wet blankets. It’s like you’re so used to the weight that you don’t even realize it’s there until it lifts.
I remember being a teenager and sneaking into my parents room to steal cigarettes off of my dad. I remember seeing a card on his dresser. It has a Masonic symbol on it. I didn’t really think much of it and went on with my life. I believe it was a membership card but I can’t be certain, and to this day he won’t really talk about it if I ask. He tells me I’m crazy. For years I thought I was. This past Friday night, I found out that I wasn’t.
It started at the retreat. At one point Jen, Christy, Lacie and I were in a back room praying for one another. As they prayed for me, I felt the urge to ask them to pray against any roots of masonry that may still be attached. We tore up contracts and burned them with Holy Spirit fire. I had an intense pain in my head that traveled to my ear and as Christy was praying for me, she said she felt a breath of air come out of my ear. Weird lol, but true. Yet, I felt something stuck like a dagger jammed into my ear that was only pulled out half way.
Then I was introduced to Jim. His style of deliverance was one that I had not really seen, or studied, but I felt the Lord prompting me to ask him for help. After the retreat I contacted him about possible Masonic ties in my bloodline and we set up a time to pray for deliverance.
Now I’ve been through hours and hours of deliverance. I’ve been set free from so many things. I’ve renounced and repented for everything under the sun. Yet I still felt something holding me back. Something that was quick to bring anger up into my throat. Something that would keep building walls and trying to isolate me. Like a wet blanket I was so accustomed to, that I barely even noticed it. As of right now still feel naked and exposed without.
When we started the session, I honestly wasn’t expecting much to happen. Yet as a seer, I had no clue what I was about to endure. With masons, each level has oaths, curses, secret words, and ways they will kill you if you leave. As I renounced all of these things one level at a time, I was seeing everything. The temple, the checkered floor with the star in the center, I saw a Black Forest, druids, I saw torture, blood, murder, sacrifice, etc. it was like hours and hours of a horror movie playing in my head with each word spoken.
With every level I felt more anger rising up. I felt hatred. I felt all of these things that I had thought were gone. It rose up and came to the forefront and it was like I was watching a movie from the sidelines. There were times that I couldn’t even see out of my own eyes. We went all the way up to the 33rd degree in masonry and then continued on to the Shriners. We renounced all curses, oaths, secret words and fears of death by the different ways they would torture you. I was shocked with everything that I experienced. As the king pin Baal rose to the surface my face changed, I felt so much disgust, anger, hatred and blatant desire for blood. There was a jester from the Shriners, Jezebel, Lilith, Delilah, and Leviathan. There were times when I couldn’t even speak, but just laughed right in his face. There were demons that I had never thought to renounce, camping out in the dark corners of my soul. Demons that still had legal rights because I hadn’t renounced the Masonic ties they had to my bloodline. Demons that I had never invited in, but were passed down to me.
During the session we found out that this went back 23 generations. There was murder and sacrifice in my bloodline that was passed down like a baton at a relay race. The draw of money, power, prostitution and position, the insignificance of women and their role, the hatred, the emptiness the solitude, all of it followed me like a shadow. Connected to me, hidden in darkness, and only visible when the light began to shine.
To be honest it felt like the longest and shortest 5.5 hours of my life. Yes you read that right. Five and a half hours. It felt like a never ending horror movie that I was being forced to watch. I had fragments of my soul that needed to come back together, I had demons that were so tormented during this time, that they wanted nothing more than to flee. We went through everything I could possibly think of, and we bound it together and casted it out. I let out this screech that lasted 3 minutes or longer, I coughed and everything left. I felt drained. I felt confused, I felt like my entire world was turned upside down. Everything I thought I had dealt with, I was actually putting a bandaid on. I had taken out all of the little foxes over and over again, yet the legal rights that these king pins had, were never dealt with at the Masonic root.
Yesterday I felt hollow, empty and unsure. Today I’m feeling peaceful. It’s the second night in a row that I’ve slept well. I was able to connect with the body of Christ last night and a woman at the church here in Ebensburg gave a prophetic word over the service that hit my very core. I’m still trying to come to peace with everything that I saw. Its so hard to explain the horrors of each level as you go up in that society. To be honest it was like something that was in me participated in all of those things with my hands, that’s how real it felt. I know there was a reason for this. I know that I’ve blogged about some pretty intense visions in the past but this shook me. The evil that is alive in this world shook me to my core. The one thing I will take away from this experience though, is the power of the blood of Jesus. The things in me, were attacking Jim. He could feel them. They were rising up in me, I could feel them. Yet as I sit here, watching Leah swimming in the pool. I feel the living water of Jesus Christ surrounding me. As if I’m completely submerged. The way those things left as all legal rights were removed, the way it felt, the things I saw. The horror I endured for hours on end, all came to an abrupt release of freedom in the mighty name of Jesus Christ.
I’m still learning, I’m still growing, and I’m still finding things out that I never would have believed in. I’m still trying to come to terms with they way years of my life felt stolen. I am still breaking chains as a pioneer in my family line. There are deep roots to these things that we don’t even think about. I had no idea what I was in for. I’m telling you now, with every fiber of my being that Jesus is real. Heaven and hell are real. Eternity is real. There are supernatural aspects to everything that the every day person doesn’t even think about. There are spiritual battles being fought. Today I shine my armor, put it on and get ready to battle. Today I thank the Lord for deliverance as I walk in freedom, finding my purpose and straightening my crown.
Thank you Jesus for setting me free from everything hidden in the dark corners of my soul.
Ephesians 6:12 - For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
Ephesians 6:11 - Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
2 Corinthians 10:3-6
3 For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. 4 For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. 5 We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ, 6 being ready to punish every disobedience, when your obedience is complete.
1 Peter 5:8 - Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:
James 4:7 - Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
Ephesians 6:13 - Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
Deuteronomy 28:7 - The LORD shall cause thine enemies that rise up against thee to be smitten before thy face: they shall come out against thee one way, and flee before thee seven ways.
Luke 10:19 - Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you.
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