25. This is Intense 11.06.19

25. This is going to get intense. Fair warning that this is a long one. I feel like I’m writing a book. Something pivotal happened to me tonight. My calling has been deeply rooted in my spirit. I conquered my first triumph over the opposition. (that’s a story for another time) This is why I have such a strong desire to help others in the same way that I have been helped. This chapter is about the gift of the Holy Spirit called the Fear of The Lord. This is a detailed written description of my own trip to Hell and back. There’s your warning. Jesus is all lovey dovey equal opportunity but we can’t forget that The Lord God Almighty means business. The devil is after your soul. Plain and simple. Just as Jesus leaves the 99 to find the one, the enemy sends 99 to hunt down the one. Wait till you hear me describe the gnashing of teeth in detail. We should all have a healthy reverential fear and awe for the Lord God Almighty. Maybe clean things up a little or a lot in some cases, like mine. I’m here to tell you that if I can clean up my act, you can too.

Matthew 13:49-50 King James Version (KJV)
49 So shall it be at the end of the world: the angels shall come forth, and sever the wicked from among the just, 50 And shall cast them into the furnace of fire: there shall be wailing and gnashing of teeth.

The enemy and his legion of demons are doing everything possible to bring the depths of Hell to the crusts of earth. My plan of action is to do everything in my power to expose the enemy’s plan of attack. My passion is spreading education on inner healing and deliverance. My goal will be to equip you to heal from the inside out in any way that I am able to through Christ Jesus and the gifts of the Holy Spirit that have been bestowed. The enemy knows that I’m about to pull the wool off of some eyes and he is breathing down my neck (literally) waiting for me to give him an opportunity to gain a stronghold. He waiting like that for all of us, just as the Lord God is waiting for us to let Jesus bring us home to Him.

Isaiah 11:1-4 King James Version (KJV)
11 And there shall come forth a rod out of the stem of Jesse, and a Branch shall grow out of his roots:
2 And the spirit of the Lord shall rest upon him, the spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and might, the spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the Lord;
3 And shall make him of quick understanding in the fear of the Lord: and he shall not judge after the sight of his eyes, neither reprove after the hearing of his ears:
4 But with righteousness shall he judge the poor, and reprove with equity for the meek of the earth: and he shall smite the earth: with the rod of his mouth, and with the breath of his lips shall he slay the wicked.

It all started two mornings ago when I went to let Max, my little Pomeranian, out to go to the bathroom. He got halfway to the door and stoped and stood there looking at me. I was holding the outside door open for him to run, but he just stood there and wouldn’t go out. I was frustrated and almost little angry, because I’m freezing, telling him to go outside and run. He wouldn’t budge. I thought to myself “Huh, what’s this all about? He always runs straight outside.” 🧐 The Lord answered “How does it feel when someone disobeys their master, Ashley?” Woah. He used my full name! 😬 This was a little more stern than I’m used to. “Time to grow up in The Lord. Time to push some people’s buttons. Time for the harsh truth of the Word in a way that will get more of my people to stop and listen and come to Jesus. The message was loud and clear. Obey my master and reveal the enemy’s tactics to better equip the Lord Gods army. There is only one to be called Father, The Lord God Almighty. However, I’m pretty sure all kinds of churches use that Father title in their little step one, two, three, religious ranking nonsense. Food for thought.

Revelation 1:8 King James Version (KJV)
8 I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, the Almighty.

Matthew Chapter 23:8-12
8 But be not ye called Rabbi: for one is your Master, [even] Christ; and all ye are brethren.
9 And call no [man] your father upon the earth: for one is your Father, which is in heaven.
10 Neither be ye called masters: for one is your Master, [even] Christ.
11 But he that is greatest among you shall be your servant.
12 And whosoever shall exalt himself shall be abased; and he that shall humble himself shall be exalted.

This was one of those small messages I kind of just leave parked in my upper room until I have the rest of the message revealed to me. It took a few days but between last night and tonight, I can button this one up. I can’t wait to learn more and do more work in my true calling.

The rest of the message (the entire Matthew 23) came between the funeral service for my Grandma, Max again 🐶, another three visions and finally the revealing of my calling to me. My doubt has been obliterated.

I’ll start with the funeral, it was very lovely. She looked so peaceful. I can guarantee you she’s in heaven with Jesus! However, it was the first time I had been in a large crowd recently and not had one word. Not a one. My spirit felt safe but stuffed down, almost like how a mime pretends to be in a glass box. The few times I went in my car to drive back and forth I had my music up singing praise to the Lord as loud as I could. I kept asking the Lord, “What is this feeling? Why is my Spirit so confined?” I must have asked the Lord a hundred times. No answer 99. Then as the funeral progressed and the Preacher was talking, I heard just one word from the Lord. “Religion”. Read Matthew 23. It’s too much scripture to paste.

Jesus came to end religion by rules and begin relationship. The Holy Spirit and the Gifts of the Holy Spirit are very real, but only to those that ask and receive. Everyone is good with the Godhead three in one. Father, Spirit, Son. Most people are good with God the Father, they’re good with Jesus the son, but when it comes to the Holy Spirit and the Gifts of the Holy Spirit they’re like “Nah, I’m good, that’s impossible, can’t be real”. Nay sayers, ugh. 🙄 I love you just like I love everyone but man, you make it rough.

Luke 11:10-13 King James Version (KJV)
10 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.
11 If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? or if he ask a fish, will he for a fish give him a serpent?
12 Or if he shall ask an egg, will he offer him a scorpion?
13 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him?

Do you really think if you had ten children, that out of those ten, you’d only elect 3 or 4 to speak to based on works they do or how religious they are or how many good deeds they do? You’d give attention only based on their grades or how clean their rooms were? No. Of course not. Now, that’s you, in your imperfect flesh. You’d love them all and speak to them all. So, how much more would a perfect, loving Father want to guide all of his children. Words from the Lord and close personal relationships with the Lord God Almighty, the Son Jesus Christ our Savior, and the Holy Spirit are not something that a loving father would reserve for a select few. You are all called to Jesus Christ. No exceptions. If you don’t want to be, then do your thing. I am not here to judge anyone, only to spread awareness. I can only warn you by setting an example of a changed life and spreading the word of the Bible.

John 10:27-28 King James Version (KJV)
27 My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me:
28 And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.

Galatians 2:20 - I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.

The next Max episode was late at night. I had woken up to him needing to go outside. I went to the back door and he took off running. When he was finished he did his super fast Max run toward the back door to come inside. All of a sudden he stops on the carpet by where the open door was, he turns his back to me and sits his butt down on the carpet. Again I’m scratching my head like what is this about? Instantly I hear “That’s what it’s like.” Next thing I know, I get filled with this knowledge and emotion of how upset the Lord is when we as Christians come running to The Lord and we are so excited and on fire and we run so fast right toward our calling. However, after a while, something just clicks in our minds and we let the fire die out. We let life get in the way, we spend too much time worrying about the things of this earth. We become discouraged by our circumstances, our faith becomes challenged and things get harder. The enemy comes with his big ole bucket of haterade and quenches our fire with it. It hurts the Lords heart when Christians turn against other Christian, or other groups of people as if they don’t understand what Jesus said. It’s like we turn our back on the whole reason for Christianity. Sharing our love, sharing the word and helping lives to be forever changed by The Lord.

John 13:34 - A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.

Last comes three visions. In total this all probably happened within a minute. It was last night and poor Nash was up all night fussing. He wasn’t feeling very well and had just been miserable. I was laying in bed praying for him to just get a few hours of rest. I felt/saw an ear canal that was red and throbbing and as I prayed, the ear canal opened and fluid drained and the ear cooled. No sooner than that vision was complete, Nash was asleep. At this point in time, I had thought he had a stomach or appendix issue because he kept pulling his legs in. (I didn’t even put two and two together that it was Nash’s ear that was infected until we received the diagnosis at the doctor the next day. I had one of those “Oh, so that’s what that was” moments when I figured it out. I need to get better at real time word. I’m delayed action word 🤷🏻‍♀️.)

After Nash was asleep I was praying and I began to feel a scalp massage but inside my head on my brain. Then I could feel/see strong hands with blue latex surgical gloves on. The hands were cleansing and massaging my brain. It felt as if you’d have a rubber mold of a brain and you’d soap it up in the kitchen sink to clean it. The fingers going into all the cracks making sure everything bad is out of there and only good cleanliness remains. Turns out he wasn’t washing my brain, he was unwashing it because the earth is brainwashed by the devil. I couldn’t see the glory of heaven if my brain was still a fleshy meat nugget that was full of secular garbage. Sorry, can’t go up with a load that heavy, only down.

Luke 23:42-43 King James Version (KJV)
42 And he said unto Jesus, Lord, remember me when thou comest into thy kingdom.
43 And Jesus said unto him, Verily I say unto thee, Today shalt thou be with me in paradise

A few moments later, that’s when it happened. I felt like I was on an elevator going up. When I finally reached my destination, I took a look around and what do I see? Crystal clear omniscient majesty. Everything flowed together as ONE. The sky blended in to the clouds with this magical flow, the clouds blended in with the sandals which blended into the toes, blended to the feet, to the brilliant white robe, and so on. His robe was the brightest white I’d ever laid eyes on. His hair and beard were as full as a lions mane but crystal white overflowing with majesty. Each strand of hair seems to be made out of the softest, most comforting material possible, as if it was a different version of the same material used to construct the wings of an angel. Everything constantly flowing together as ONE in omniscient majesty. That’s all I remember. It’s so hard to find the words to do any of this justice. I can’t do it justice. Then I hear “Are you ready?”

Revelation 20:15 - And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire.

The next thing I know, I was headed down, and fast. I passed through earth and kept heading down. Now, I’m thinking to myself, wait a minute, I missed my stop! Then I thought to myself oh crap, I died and I screwed something up so bad, I can’t believe it. 😫 What I realized when I looked around was that they couldn’t harm me, but they could show me. It was excruciatingly hot. I couldn’t breathe, every breath felt like fire into my lungs. As I look around, I notice the entire surroundings are formed out of a devouring almost breathing substance that reminds me of how molten lava gets that dark black crust but still moves. It was a cracked crust so you could see the simmering bright red hot lava flowing underneath the surface of everything.

It felt like I was in a lobby. There was a staircase that winded up to the left. The stairs, floor, ceiling and walls were all made out of the same material a ever devouring cracked molten lava substance. It almost looks as if the walls crawl and move with the pain and anguish of every soul trapped and wailing there, moving and crawling with the flow of the lava underneath the black crust. There was an area where the crust was broken and there was a molten lava/liquid fire swirled bright orange and red, like a lake. I describe it as liquid fire because it felt like the fire would cling to you like water droplets cling to you as you get out of a pool. Except with fire and pain and burning. The stairs wound up to the left for each level of hell. There were areas broken out to be seen as windows for each level where you could view the tortured souls. Here’s the kicker, each and every molten step on the staircase was completely covered with tall razor blade spikes that would impale (pierce with something sharp) every inch of your foot, coming up through bottom and out of the top your foot at every step.

How can steps with razors harm me in Hell if I leave my body on earth when I die and there’s nothing physical to step with there? Well, nay sayer, I say to you, you aren’t in a body, but your tortured soul is forced to feel the pain as if you are. So you’re basically there with a body that never breaks down during torture but you feel absolutely all the pain. It’s like the song that never ends but with pain and torture. Since your skin can’t break open or the torture ever finish, each event of torture becomes the devils minions trying to see who can outdo the others in causing the most traumatic pain.

Revelation 20:10
“And the devil that deceived them was cast into the lake of fire and brimstone, where the beast and the false prophet are, and shall be tormented day and night for ever and ever.”

I turned around and I felt this dark presence. Something with so much hatred for everything, hatred radiating from an inner wound of failure and a sinful desire to be greater than the Lord God Almighty. Sorry, never gonna happen, you’re not even worth describing. Get thee behind me Satan. Not today. You get no five minutes of fame here. I will say this though, the devil himself has the ability to become as big and fierce as you’ll let him, but the Lord God Almighty is always going to be Greater! The enemy tried very hard to impart fear into my heart by his image. He knew why I was there, who I belonged to and what I was about to do for the people of this earth. After I said the words “Get thee behind me Satan” He shrunk down to be an equal size as me, walked around to be behind me, stood there breathing on the back of my neck and warned me that he would do everything he could to derail me. Not today Satan and not ever. I am not afraid of you anymore.

I turn around and the last thing I’m shown was the gnashing of teeth.

Psalm 37:12 King James Version (KJV)
12 The wicked plotteth against the just, and gnasheth upon him with his teeth.

I was standing there and every inch of the air surrounding me was full of razor blade teeth. They were gnashing and biting and trying to tear at your skin. You could feel all of the pain but they never dig down to muscle or bone. The pain never ceased. It was constant, all consuming, a pain that was felt from the inside out. Physical, mental and emotional anguish devouring you 24/7 for eternity. Let that sink in. Like a dog trying to dig on a linoleum floor gaining no traction but moving his paws as fast as he is able. The frantic scratching trying to gain traction in any way possible but with razor sharp teeth all over your body. There would never be a time that the torture would break through that outside layer and get traction to go down to muscle or bone. There was no stop at death like in our current world. Just constant devouring pain. Constant sorrow and regret. Never ending. Eternity. Then just like that, whoosh, I was home safe with one last scripture before bed.

2 Thessalonians 1:7-12 King James Version (KJV)
7 And to you who are troubled rest with us, when the Lord Jesus shall be revealed from heaven with his mighty angels,
8 In flaming fire taking vengeance on them that know not God, and that obey not the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ:
9 Who shall be punished with everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord, and from the glory of his power;
10 When he shall come to be glorified in his saints, and to be admired in all them that believe (because our testimony among you was believed) in that day.
11 Wherefore also we pray always for you, that our God would count you worthy of this calling, and fulfil all the good pleasure of his goodness, and the work of faith with power:
12 That the name of our Lord Jesus Christ may be glorified in you, and ye in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.

So I’m pleading to you all to reconsider lighting your fire for the Lord again, to reconsider sin, and to turn your lives around one step at a time with Jesus. I pray that you realize that though Jesus loves us all, the Lord God Almighty loves us like a Father, which means he wants us to make good decisions, to turn away from the wicked world we live in, to repent and have respect for him, and to remind us that reverential Fear and Awe of the Lord are a necessary part of Christianity. It’s not all love and sunshine and rainbows. I takes hard work, dedication and a loving respect for our Father to move forward in Christianity and to obtain everlasting life in Heaven.