From the Muck to the Mighty; My Journey with Jesus

  There have been several things on my mind over the last few weeks. Sometimes I struggle with my emotions, I’m not going to lie. I get frustrated and I wonder why I write or why I have to see and feel things the way that I do. I get overloaded with the heaviness, the demons, the warfare. I get tired and worn down. I want to scream into a pillow, and I have at times, more than once. It’s not an easy walk, denying yourself and taking up the cross daily. That’s why so many don’t. It’s not easy. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve wanted to give up, to have it all stop, to just feel “normal”. To go back to blending in. Yet every time I tried, the Lord wouldn’t let me. I am so thankful for that.  Instead, He shows up and does the miraculous. He reminds me why I’m called to stand out, to stand up for the truth and to share His word with the world. He reminds me why I was delivered, to deliver others. He reminds me why I was set free, to set other captives free. He reminds me ...

  🎼🎵🎶❤️🧎🏻‍♀️🙅🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🙌🏻🎤🔥 The Lord continues to blow my mind and forces me to expand my knowledge and understanding of His majestic nature toward His children. Sometimes by dragging them to a microphone in front of a crowded room and reminding them of their voice.  “Remember this Ash?”  Back when I was a kid, I used to sing in the chorus and I loved it. Over the years I had performed more than a handful of solos in different programs from elementary to middle school. I tried music class my freshman year of HS too, but by then, I wanted out of it because it wasn’t “cool”.  I wanted to smoke, drink and party. I fell away from God, not that we were that close at the time anyway. I quit everything I loved because I wanted to be cool.  Insert years of treating my body and life like it was an ashtray full of Captain Morgan that I sucked up my nose through a straw. Fast forward to Jesus setting me straight and these most recent close to two years of my li...

  I was spending some much needed alone time with the Lord tonight. The topic of the evening was worship. I’ve had a tug on my heart to do another karaoke like many of you remember me doing last year. This one will be good but I’ll save it for another post. One day I will be the evangelist version of weird Al 😂 The night took an interesting turn. I’ve been listening to music, writing out lyrics and dancing in the kitchen. It’s been way too long since I’ve done videos for you guys. As I paused to let my dog Max outside, I started singing random lyrics that began as a simple cry to my Father, but turned into a vision and a message.  🎶🎵🎼🎶🎵🎼🎶 Restore my voice Lord Restore my Heart  Restore my Peace, Set me apart  Restore my Joy Lord, My strength in you Restore my Spirit, Keep me in truth For there is one Lord, Jesus Christ  And there was one price paid, His life For there was one death on the cross One Resurrection for the Lost   Run to Jesus, He’s comi...

I couldn’t help but notice the sun shining through the clouds the other day. As I took a moment to thank the Lord for this beautiful view, I was instantly reminded of His glory. He is beyond wonderous, providing me with little reminders of this fact, all the time. He says it right in Exodus that if we saw His face we would die. It’s that glorious. Could you imagine the majesty of that moment? The one where you come face to face with the Lord for the first time. The intensity. That thought reminded me of the bright golden sunlight shining through these clouds. I could only imagine the majesty of the throne room, considering this is what we get to experience here on earth. The Lord drew my attention to the clouds. I immediately felt they were in the way. They were blocking the suns powerful rays of light. It didn’t matter how bright the sun was. It didn’t matter what time of day it was, or what the temperature outside was reading. The clouds were blocking the mighty sun. No matter the an...

  Jesus: gestures toward cross “I didn’t do this so you all could do that.” Me: Do what Lord? Jesus: vaguely gestures toward earth “That” Then the Lord put on my heart that He really didn’t go to the cross so we can do what we are doing; not only to eachother, but also to His name, and to His church. He died for us, but not for that.  He didn’t die so you could remain captive in your own minds. He died to set the captives free. He didn’t die so you could remain angry, bitter, hateful and mean. He died so you could have peace everlasting, joy abounding and be able to love the way He loves. He didn’t die for you so you could be anxious, depressed, selfish, jealous, envious, prideful, or full of lust and perversion. He died to break you free from everything that has kept you bound. He died to break you you free from yourself. He died to deliver us from evil.  He died so that every minute of every hour of every day could be spent walking in freedom. He died so the Holy Ghost ...

The past few days have been a whirlwind for me in the spirit world. We sometimes look at those on a platform or those in ministry and think that they are this elite group of chosen individuals. We can get jealous or envious wanting what they have but we don’t realize what sacrifice and obedience it takes to get there. We don’t want to put in the time or effort. We don’t want to sacrifice our flesh, we don’t want to say no to the drink, or the drug, or the food, or sex that comforts us. The same goes for the world of the flesh. They see the you tube and Instagram stars, the doctors and lawyers, and they covet their houses, cars and vacations. Yet they don’t want to go to school and put in the long hours or years of hard work to get there. Everyone wants to get to the end and enjoy the rewards without going through the process and putting in the work.  It’s the process that refines us. It’s the process and our own individual free will, moment by moment decisions that make or break ou...

 ❤️🩸✝️🔥⚔️🛡⚖️🙌🏻🪢💪🏻🌾 This world is going to continue, for now. Tomorrow will come, and the next day, and the next one after that and so on. At least for a little while, def not a long while, but at least for a little while this is our life. Yet one day there will be an imminent rapture, there will be trials and tribulations. One day Jesus will meet you face to face and you’ll have to account for your sins.  Wether you die of Covid, natural causes, the rapture, the be-heading, whatever happens there will come a day when eternity will be all that’s left. I think we are getting too wrapped up in politics and not wrapped up enough in the eternal mindset.  Biden, Harris, Trump, Pence, red, blue, BLM, KKK, conservatives, liberals, murderers, police officers, rapists, pastors, preachers, doctors, drug addicts, homeless, heartless, rich, poor, loved by man, despised by man; every single one of us is equally LOVED by our father the Lord God Almighty!!! EVERY ONE OF US IS EQ...

It’s funny to me, the way the Lord answers my prayers sometimes. After coming back from the trip, I have been praying for more quality time to spend with the Lord. First, my prayer was answered by my employer suggesting quarantine for a week. Now that I’ve been back to work, it’s been these late night, early morning hours. I’ve often found myself up late writing, reading and praying. Of course this morning the Lord gently woke me up about an hour before my alarm was set to go off. I really enjoy when that happens, it’s a little reminder that the Lord wants to spend time with me as much as I need to spend time with Him. I began thanking the Lord for my children, my job, my friends and family, my home, my car, etc, just going down the list of the million things I have to be thankful for and I began to realize how comfortable my bed was in that moment. I began snuggling into the blankets and rubbing my cheek on the pillow to find that spot that’s just right. The sun was starting to come u...

When life gets busy it’s usually the tiny hours in the morning that end up belonging to the Lord. Prayer has become a center focus of my life since I got baptized in fall of 2019 and came to know Christ. It’s these little conversations that calm my heart and steady my walk.  As I was praying tonight, I felt the Lord calling out to the intercessors. Calling to those people who are quiet and keep to themselves. The ones that are uncomfortable trying to preach to crowds or pray for others in public. Not everyone is called to a platform. Some are called to teach, some to preach, some to evangelize, some to scribe, and so on. One of the most important callings that we share is the call to intercessory prayer.  Intercession or intercessory prayer is the act of praying to the Lord on behalf of oneself or others. The Apostle Paul's exhortation to Timothy specified that intercession prayers should be made for all people. Everyone deserves to have someone praying for them.  Many of...