From the Muck to the Mighty; My Journey with Jesus

  You ever get into one of those conversations with the Lord where you can feel the way He would be looking at you when He's talking? Like you can feel both the love and conviction that call us higher while feeling the fear and respect the Lord deserves all at the same time. "Wanna talk about it Ash?" Nope Lord, I really don't, I got this. It's just a little warfare, a little adjusting, the retreat is coming up, I've been doing deliverance, I'm sure I have a target on my back, I just got married, it's an adjustment, it's just a little warfare I'm fine.  A few days later... "Wanna talk about it now, Ash?" Me.... Lord.... Me....Lord..... Me: I am fine. I'm sure it was just a bad day. 'That's an awful lot of bad days to be having lately, Ash" Me: Lord, I will be fine. A few days later.... "Ash, reading the word more would help, worshiping more would help, doing declarations would help." Me...Lord...Me...Lord......

We just don’t get it. We really don’t. We need to come to a realization folks. We are spoiled, unappreciative, offended and looking for reasons to be divided. Church we’ve gotten it so wrong. It’s time to wake up.   Over the weekend I was blessed to attend a training with some of my really good ministry friends. Valerie had read a book titled “Women who risk” by Tom and JoAnn Doyle. I would highly recommend it. She reached out to them via email, invited them to come for a house meeting and this past weekend they flew in from Texas to provide us with tools and information on how to engage and minister to the Muslim community in our neighborhoods. Their ministry has been based on over 20 years of traveling to the Middle East as well as planning over 90 trips to Israel.  Some of their stories broke my heart. They had told us about the time they were ministering to a woman that kept turning her head to listen when they spoke. She found out through the translator that her husband h...

I've felt a strong urge to write for a while, but finding the time has been hard for me. I have a tendency to do really well with spending time in the word and worship then slowly let life get in the way. The Lord is teaching me about both balance and effort this season. I'll share a vision on the effort part in a moment. Balancing time in the word, worship, fellowship, with family, as a wife, as a masters student, working, giving dogs attention, and clearing out my house has been difficult. I found myself stressed and slipping back into a negative mindset.  You'd think with what I preach, I'd know better than to get sucked in to a negative thought pattern believing the random lies the enemy was whispering in my ear but no..I still fall for it at times. That's when I get out of balance. When the enemy comes whispering in my ear about shortcomings, insecurities or things I need to take care of, and I let my mind roll these things around like that row of crushed seash...