It's been a long time since I've opened this blog to write. Too long (about 2 months to be exact). I find myself sitting here staring at a blank screen, wondering what to say. Wondering who will care to read this blog again, while also enjoying the freedom of not worrying if anyone does. Between the sudden death of my father in September, the mission trip to Puerto Rico in October, the urgent unwelcome need to purchase a new vehicle, helping with a weekend retreat in November and coming home to battle sickness in my household with the kids; my last few months seem to be a blur of chaos, emotions and fleshy temptations to fall back into old thought patters. Patters of anxiety and feeling overwhelmed, temptation to murmur and complain, thoughts of "what if" and "if only" trying to creep back into my mind and in all honesty I've struggled these last few weeks to walk in the authority of Christ. I've struggled, but I have not failed. That's the be...