From the Muck to the Mighty; My Journey with Jesus

  There have been several things on my mind over the last few weeks. Sometimes I struggle with my emotions, I’m not going to lie. I get frustrated and I wonder why I write or why I have to see and feel things the way that I do. I get overloaded with the heaviness, the demons, the warfare. I get tired and worn down. I want to scream into a pillow, and I have at times, more than once. It’s not an easy walk, denying yourself and taking up the cross daily. That’s why so many don’t. It’s not easy. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve wanted to give up, to have it all stop, to just feel “normal”. To go back to blending in. Yet every time I tried, the Lord wouldn’t let me. I am so thankful for that.  Instead, He shows up and does the miraculous. He reminds me why I’m called to stand out, to stand up for the truth and to share His word with the world. He reminds me why I was delivered, to deliver others. He reminds me why I was set free, to set other captives free. He reminds me ...

  🎼🎵🎶❤️🧎🏻‍♀️🙅🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🙌🏻🎤🔥 The Lord continues to blow my mind and forces me to expand my knowledge and understanding of His majestic nature toward His children. Sometimes by dragging them to a microphone in front of a crowded room and reminding them of their voice.  “Remember this Ash?”  Back when I was a kid, I used to sing in the chorus and I loved it. Over the years I had performed more than a handful of solos in different programs from elementary to middle school. I tried music class my freshman year of HS too, but by then, I wanted out of it because it wasn’t “cool”.  I wanted to smoke, drink and party. I fell away from God, not that we were that close at the time anyway. I quit everything I loved because I wanted to be cool.  Insert years of treating my body and life like it was an ashtray full of Captain Morgan that I sucked up my nose through a straw. Fast forward to Jesus setting me straight and these most recent close to two years of my li...

  I was spending some much needed alone time with the Lord tonight. The topic of the evening was worship. I’ve had a tug on my heart to do another karaoke like many of you remember me doing last year. This one will be good but I’ll save it for another post. One day I will be the evangelist version of weird Al 😂 The night took an interesting turn. I’ve been listening to music, writing out lyrics and dancing in the kitchen. It’s been way too long since I’ve done videos for you guys. As I paused to let my dog Max outside, I started singing random lyrics that began as a simple cry to my Father, but turned into a vision and a message.  🎶🎵🎼🎶🎵🎼🎶 Restore my voice Lord Restore my Heart  Restore my Peace, Set me apart  Restore my Joy Lord, My strength in you Restore my Spirit, Keep me in truth For there is one Lord, Jesus Christ  And there was one price paid, His life For there was one death on the cross One Resurrection for the Lost   Run to Jesus, He’s comi...

I couldn’t help but notice the sun shining through the clouds the other day. As I took a moment to thank the Lord for this beautiful view, I was instantly reminded of His glory. He is beyond wonderous, providing me with little reminders of this fact, all the time. He says it right in Exodus that if we saw His face we would die. It’s that glorious. Could you imagine the majesty of that moment? The one where you come face to face with the Lord for the first time. The intensity. That thought reminded me of the bright golden sunlight shining through these clouds. I could only imagine the majesty of the throne room, considering this is what we get to experience here on earth. The Lord drew my attention to the clouds. I immediately felt they were in the way. They were blocking the suns powerful rays of light. It didn’t matter how bright the sun was. It didn’t matter what time of day it was, or what the temperature outside was reading. The clouds were blocking the mighty sun. No matter the an...