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219. Do You Know You're a Prodigal?

In normal Ash overshare fashion, I feel the need to write again. I feel the need to cry, to scream to vomit emotions and words all over the place. I'm adjusting in the flesh to change; school changes, work schedule changes and drastic life changes all swirling around in my mind and on my to do. My sleep has been erratic, and rest feels like something I used to have but can't find. It's been a few weeks of this, emotions on high, not feeling well physically and all the things.  Last night I broke. Last night I cried looking at myself in the mirror, and I asked the Lord if I could come home.  As I stood there facing that mirror, all the worldly things were swirling in my head; my emotions, other peoples emotions, random thoughts I've needed to take captive, overwhelming feelings that I am behind on things in school, practice and work from not feeling well, feeling guilty and attacked with shame because I want to do more, or be more for my husband, my kids, my employer and...