From the Muck to the Mighty; My Journey with Jesus

Sunday before church Regis decided to head to the altar early for prayer. It was one of those mornings where I woke up not wanting to leave the house at all. We had gotten into a pretty heated argument the night before and the devil was having a field day in my thoughts. To be honest, it was one of the more intense times where the thought of giving up ministry all together was front and center. If you've followed me over the years, you'd know that I don't sugar coat things. That what I blog about is raw and real, and if I have learned anything over the years, it's that I'd rather help 5 real life people walk through trials and come out victoriously in Christ, than motivate 10000 people with another self help speech they forget about as soon as its over.   So as I begrudgingly get myself up, Regis tells me that he is "using my biblical authority as your husband and telling you that we are going to church, so get ready." Now as a woman, in this circumstance,...

 The Lord is calling his church to be ready out of season!  I saw a video about the fig tree the other day, and when I was praying this morning it came to my mind again. The Lord cursed a perfectly good fig tree for all eternity. The fig tree was just doing it’s fig tree thing. Minding its own fig tree business. The scripture even says in Mark 11:13 that it wasn’t the season for figs. So by the season of the year the fig tree was technically doing what it was supposed to be doing. Not having figs.  The Lord reminded me of two things. The first was that the figs and leaves normally grow together. The tree had the appearance of leaves, the appearance that figs should be there and they weren’t there. This is much of todays church. The appearance of full leaves and no actual fruit underneath.  I saw a vision of the Lord walking through this beautiful hallway. All through the hallway there were lampstands. Some weren’t lit, some were dim, some were on fire. I saw the Lord...

  There is a fire burning in my bones, it's as if my spirit wants to scream from the rooftops. It's time to drop your crutches, bride of Christ! It's time for self reflection, it's time to get alone with the Lord. It's time to be vulnerable. It's time to pray, it's time to fast, and it's time to actually do what the Lord has been calling you to do. No more hiding, no more blending in, it's time to stand out, it's time to be separate and actually do the things that would make you separate from this world.     I never wanted a thousand friends, followers or a platform, but God had another idea. I get bombarded by attacks of anxiety before I preach, share a video or give a word; but I fear disobedience to the Lord more than I fear my flesh, my "image" or the opinions that others may have of my ministry. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. The Lord has been stirring this in my spirit for a while now, it's time for a harsh r...